Fire spinning

I went to Cirque Roots' show this evening with my boss and his wife. I don't know what made it so great...I went to work this morning with Denise and then ran errands, tried out for a camera part for an online website, went home and then went to this thing, and I had a lot of fun.

The women were dressed in tight fitting clothing, red and gold and silver and black, and the men had no shirts, were face-painted as well, and every one of them spun fire or did acro-yoga or walked and danced on stilts, did things that looked difficult, especially for three shows. I knew that my mind would say it wanted to do that, and it did. I was enraptured by the fire and the water and the lights. I loved the elements, the fact that I was sitting next to McKenna, Scott, and Denise...people who understand my need to control things, but have beautiful hearts too.

I was a little bit desirous of Josh, but truth is I'm desirous for lots of things right now. I'm in heat shall we say, and I feel like I'm being attracted to anything that moves and is male. Because I haven't spoken to a guy intimately in a long time. I don't know what it feels like to hold someone close and bring them joy through touching them, be loved in a womanly way, or anything like that.

Someone who steps in time with you, that seems foreign, but I couldn't have imagined going to this Cirque Roots thing with Denise and Scott and there I was. And it made my heart happy and my mind was quieter than it sometimes is. Kenna and I talked a little bit. I could see her questions and her desire to figure things out. I could feel all of it. It's hard to do that and still move forward.

I'm watching Cafe Flore and I think I want the soundtrack :)