C'est Juste Pour Toi

I have anxiety, big surprise, today about going to this meeting for memorizing bible verses. That makes me angry and depressed. When in all actuality, the morning meal and coffee are what makes me anxious I think. I could've just not had coffee and meditated this morning, there was a little voice that wanted to do that, but I gave into the routine of my mornings instead. I can weather that. I think I want to lean towards meditating for 20 mins in the morning. 3x a week maybe. When it will be the most beneficial.

Things I want to get done today:

--Study chinese and some french
--Read my Sweetness of Forgetting and the film book
--Write my Character Analysis
--Use my quinoa/millet/flax to make something yummy...but what??
--Go to this thing at 2:00pm
--Don't freak out and not go...prepare through allowing, not pushing.
--Let go, learn, be myself, and breathe.

I think I can do this. I believe God has given me today for a reason, and every little thing that transpires pushes me towards His grace and love in calming, tender ways. I pray He continues to cultivate passion in me, cultivate love for others and a servant's heart, as well as the desire to do hard work and devote myself to this world in ways I never dreamed I could. I pray He continues to plant in me the seeds of a LOVing Will, something that holds fast to HIS foundations, and not foundations that I construct that will fall over. I pray He gives me a job to do, and that I DO it with abandon and hope and trust in Him.

I pray for Celeste and Maria, that their relationship blossom in a loving way in order to grow in them this feeling of being loved by the people around you and what that means in their lives. I pray God continues to cultivate Celeste and Owen's relationship and that He really begin to shine in her heart, because she is such a beautiful picture of His grace and mercy and overflowing joy!

I pray for Kendra, that she be blessed and overjoyed at the relationships she is forming and that as she works hard she sees the fruits of her labor daily. I pray she is brought up in the hope that Jesus gives, and that she learns the beauty He has placed in her.

I pray that my prayer life blossoms and that I begin to really cultivate the truth and serum of His word in Real ways. I pray that I become a blessing to others in my honesty and abilities and that I not be afraid of showing up, no matter what state I am in. I pray God continue to heal my gut and the lining of my life so that He can put forth beautiful things. I pray for my sister Erin and her new husband as they start their journey committed to one another. I pray that they feel safe in each other's arms as the beauty of a life lived for each other and others unfolds. I pray God gives Ryan the strength to overcome what he fights on a daily basis, and that He be surrounded by friends who support and love him out of his shell. I pray Ryan feel safe and revered enough to really blossom. I pray God heals the people of this world who are crying out to Him for help and strength and relief. I pray that relief come in True form, the forms of the spirit, not of the body necessarily, although these are great gifts. I pray the people of Hollywood and the youth and grown of this world are truly blessed by the things that come out of there. I pray hope, peace, and shining light come raining down on the people so they may look up and praise God in His highest throne!

In Jesus' holy name, Amen!!