Work Shops

Ok, so my work today is to manage my time as wisely as possible under the circumstances of learning, take Brandon on a hike up Sabino Canyon and spend our time wisely up there, read The Fault in Our Stars, write some, eat well, love my brothers and sisters, wish Caitlyn at Whole Foods a Happy Birthday, forgive myself and ask forgiveness for being completely flaky a bunch of the time. Maybe trade in some books at bookman's but probably do that in the next few days. So far so good.

ASL: This morning I realized that the best thing I could do was to go straight to ASL and I'm on Lesson 9 of LifePrint. I want to get through all 30 lessons by Erin's wedding Feb. 28th. It's TOTally doable.

Chinese: my goal is to get through Pimsleur and use my kindle to help me solidify some of the characters and pinyin. I'd like to be able to write a few sentences in pinyin by Erin's wedding.

Acting...I'd like to have memorized and performed a part within the next few months. I'm considering taking an acting class at Pima. It doesn't overwhelm me, it would be good to get out there with people, and I could practice all that I'm learning without going completely batty. I don't want to spend any money, though, and so I'm not sure about that. I'm not sure if I would take Chinese and Acting, just Acting, or voice and movement for the actor or what. I guess I have a few more days to let that roll around in my head.

Tomorrow I am going back to visit Promise. I don't think I'll do that today, although it wouldn't be a negative thing...it just feels a bit better to wait one more day. Clear the air I have in my emotional field. I want to feel all the feelings I need to feel and let it run through me, coursing and flowing.

Writing: I don't know if I have a goal as of yet. I would like to finish a story by May maybe? Finish a shorter story, I could probably write a novel if I had enough of an idea and enough of a story to follow...I guess I will keep myself open. I've been trying to let the bible stories take me, but just like the rest of my life, it seems I am destined to wait on the Lord (food issues are really the root of that. My mind stops and starts with the food, and it would be great to have it free flow all the way through).

I talked with my brother Brandon last night about his life and his problems, and we figured out just ONE thing that could help his days flow. I know that it's not up to me, but I'd love to be a part of his life, it enriches mine, and he's my brother forever. Why wouldn't I want to help and be a part of him. I can field his ever-present thoughts of others. He is always thinking of others and their needs. He is very intuitive that way, and it gets annoying to his brothers and sisters because he will anticipate and voice that anticipation and that makes them anxious. I understand that.

So far, having missed an acting audition, I believe I will let the other acting audition go. That will free me up. I need to feel free right now. It disappoints me that I'm not further along at 24. It makes me angry at myself that I would wait this long to take steps. It saddens me that I would've lost precious time. But I need to let those emotions flow through me so I can move forward.