Acting

OK, so maybe I'm not meant to be an actress. Maybe I just imagine up stories or something. Maybe my illness will cause me to never be able to do anything for a long period of time. Maybe me missing today's audition is a crazy sign that I don't actually want to audition.

I feel crazy and just strange. What the FUCK have I been doing this whole time? And what the HELL am I supposed to do now?? Jesus. I trust you completely with my heart. And let me tell you it's more than a little broken. I am worn down to the nub. All my vulnerabilities and imperfections are laid bare and I feel naked before you. I don't know anyone with your power and might and majesty and grace. I don't like being separated from you. I don't like lying to you, or trying. I don't like missing you and I don't like this earth. Can you please take us all up to heaven where we can enjoy your presence?!!!!! What the fuck am I doing here?!!!!!!

Sorry blog people who never read my posts. I have had a lot of meat and probiotic and egg....I TOLD you I documented that egg for a reason. Look what it does to me! Yikes.