Missed Days

I'm watching Behind the Candelabra and I'm farting. I want both to end.

Both mean that something great is going on, but both also mean there is something wrong in this world. Matt Damon and Michael Douglas both do very well, and I'm doing very well I think, but not in a holy way, in a worldly way. The way they go into hazy mode into focused mode. The story of Liberace is incredibly disturbing, and totally how the world is going, the way the world is going and has gone.

I'm chewing gum and I'm swallowing these strangely sweet, fake things that are being brought up in Liberace's life. I feel so sad for people who are unknowingly under the influence of these worldly, animalistic, hormonal, chemical things. Now it makes me want to retreat into a hole and emerge an actress butterfly who flies up and makes people think of great things, not worldly things.

It also makes me recalculate my ideas of this world including fashion, homes, things that shine and are glitzy, fame and glory.

I'm watching Matt Damon pace back and forth and sniff. His nose is running. Frolic's nose runs...she doesn't do cocaine though. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tk1JRY-BrSI