Holidays

Ok, the holidays have taken me away for a bit, I'm a little ashamed of my lack of posting, seeing as it takes all of ten minutes and I don't have any restrictive guidelines I have to meet so it is in fact just me typing for ten minutes...but ONward I go.

My brother's birthday combined with Thanksgiving, "black friday," Small Business Saturday...there's a lot to catch up on. I know, you're waiting with bated breath...don't worry, I'll fill you in on the greatest happenings chez moi, a la Tucson. :)

So Thanksgiving went much better than I had thought, based on previous experience. I'm finding that the more I let go of previous experiences, the more fun and loose I can feel in the moment. I love laughing and being loose. (One reason I really enjoy modeling, it requires movement and being loose in order to look real.) We cooked turkey, vegetables, actual mashed potatoes, cauliflower mashed potatoes, 3 pumpkin pies with coconut ingredients, and probably some other things. I didn't eat much, praise the Lord, my intestines can't handle too much solid foods yet (which is both depressing and actually a little comforting still). I believe my family thoroughly enjoyed it, Brandon gets withdrawn when he starts self-shaming and becomes sulky, just like me. But he rebounds much more quickly than I ever did when I was little. I don't know how my family could stand it.

Mom and dad, Erin and Derek, and the rest of the family, all single, gathered around to play Taboo and charades with movie titles. There were a few spats, mostly of us picking at one another about little things. I noticed Ryan has been getting much more openly picky about things which I think is so healthy, and Reagan and Megan were MIA in their rooms enjoying the perks of the internet, also healthy in my opinion.

Kristen went on her first date, epic fail. He showed up late, wouldn't really talk, was tired (via Kristen) and didn't ask any questions really about her. I think she is growing up quite quickly now and I know that she will find someone sooner than later. She was adorably anxious, really positively, forward-thinkingly anxious while she was waiting for him at our place. Kaitlyn and I enjoyed watching from my car as we waited to pick out party supplies for decorating the apartment for Ryan coming home. Mom, Colin and Brandon arrived, Brandon ALWAYS vocal about his love for me, which I am constantly in awe of. When Dad and Ryan got back we opened some presents (only 3 or so sadly) and we did NOT enjoy ice cream, seeing that it took too long to get cool enough to make in mom's new frozen yogurt maker.

Ok, so then Saturday, I go to the market and see Denise, my hands freeze like I'm dead, and she helps warm them back to life. Maybe because of that, maybe because I really don't want to let go of the money, I agreed to stay with her on Saturdays. It's going to cultivate more in me, I can feel it, but I am absolutely going to dread it some of the time. It's cold, a lot of work for my arms, which I hate, and I don't see very many young people at all, but it's only 4 hours, which is actually a great amount of time for me. I get a break from the east side of town and get to see the mountains much more clearly. I will have to dress more warmly, but I will also get to smile a lot.

Afterwards I visited Laura Tanzer (her husband Michael was there as well, and Chris, an artist who just loved me and wanted to touch my coat with his little artist fingers), then I ran into a boys' skate shop and met two very nice skater dudes...the tall black guy I cannot for the life of me remember his name, but the manager was named Eric. I tried to convince them that ties were skater-y, but they weren't having it. I think I'm going to have to go over to Elizabeth Denneau and get her to teach me to make some or something...

I walked over to Inner Tie and enjoyed a nice 2 hour chat with Jodi about her new baby that's coming, her new job opportunities and me maybe learning a few things about the business. I have mixed feelings about everything, so a part of me really wants to do it, and another part of me dreads the thought of sitting in there day after day...I'm not sure which part will win, but I'm in for the long haul.



So, that's my shpeel so far. I think that covers a bit of things. I'm sure I can come back in and get more specific to cover up my days missed. Here's to more modeling opportunities? Or more fulfilling things in my life. Pray for me!