Adultlessons

Adultlessons - Adolescence


I think we all go through this thing called adultlessons. We don't know what we're doing but we strive to put ourselves at the forefront of the battle. Now, this is necessary because when battling, if you are not at the forefront, no one is. Therefore you lose every battle without even knowing it. So this soldiering out, this parade of our best and worst parts of ourselves, is an essential step in any person's growth.

Everyone goes through different lengths of time, different parts of our lives that make this happen. I'm just embarking on a new one I think, this new one that includes doing things because of the morals found in the bible. I feel exhausted on all this world has to hold. I don't enjoy doing things because of what the world says is good and bad, and plus, they're all saying something different. Now I see what the great people are saying when they say there is ONE path. Because it is important to know that there IS just one path for you, and that path has nothing to do with the world at all. It has everything to do with what's inside you.

Now, finding out what is inside you is like ... searching for a ring in a coal pit, with your feet. It hurts, it's disgustingly scarring, and it doesn't render much. But if you happen to make it through by God's grace, which can be like a small fountain of water that floats under your feet if you accept it into your coal pit, then you just might find that one ring you were looking for.

That ring turns out to be a mirror, and the mirror can then show you the scars, or if you ask forgiveness to step in, it can show you this beautiful spirit that has no body of scars, and you can carry this mirror (which is actually more like a window into Jesus' heart) with you on your one path.

Ugh, but you know what? The image only lasts so long, then your addictions and body come back into play, they are realized too, and you get a bit lost and disoriented and confused.


One thing I'm worrying about is my dress. Now that I've put it out there to Jordan, I worry it won't get done. She has different timing than I do, different, careful precision, and I am more of a whirlwind of quick decisions and desires, pushed away or made quickly enough to not care about the emotions that come with. That is what I'm learning to bring into my awareness slowly but surely. And I am grateful like a sunflower in the rain when the sun shines through.

This Adultlessons will only continue, and I'm hoping they bring the fruit of Jesus!