French and Work

Today I had work, boulot, french, francais, and a few other things along the way. I feel like I am being led, and am beginning to realize the success that is waiting around the corner of feeling like death is the way of things. I more and more am able to take things in without having to question. The more I try, the more I get out there with my intake, the more I am surprised by the acceptance that occurs. I am very proud of what God is doing in me. Sure, my gums are swollen, my mind is a little anxious, but the more I am myself in it, the better I feel. Even as I take TINY TINY steps.

Tomorrow will be climbing and Erin's bachelorette party for a little bit. Do I need to bring a gift card to Victoria's Secret? YES! :) That's what she wants, that's what I want to get her. $15 ain't gonna hurt me any. Especially with the extra income form Scott and Denise. I'm so grateful for them.

Scott today was very encouraging to me. Why? Because he just keeps going, and he finds things to laugh about. I can't ask for more in an employer, or a man. You keep going, you find things that move you and create pleasure in other's lives. And that's what creates pleasure in yours. If you can appreciate the emotion in others, that's when you can appreciate the emotion in yourself.

Goals in the next few days:

Read Enemies by Maxim Gorky
Clean bathroom
Get through these things
Praise God
Memorize Hebrews 12:1, Proverbs 15:1, John 1:9-10
Pray for Celeste, Erin, Ryan, Family, Erika, Reagan!! Emily, Abby, Chelsea, Kristen
Go to the auditions Saturday

In the next few months I want to focus on acting, classes, auditions, acting in film and on stage. I want to dedicate myself to causing others joy through experiencing the troubles that come with life, the ups and the downs, the happiness even in the mundane. Really close up. I want to be accessible, new every morning, willing to go through things and be alive, open to trying. I want to honor Him and what He has made. I want to trust the process, and when I feel I've maxed out, I want to GIVE myself a break, rest, recharging time in whatever capacity God gives me. I pray that, Lord, you have a plan for me, and if I just settle into it, I can let you live vitally in me. I pray you are with me always, as you have promised, and that you give me the strength to trust you. In Jesus' holy name, AMEN!