Saving Mr. Banks

I went to this movie with my family (Ryan, Colin, Brandon and Mom and Dad), and was enraptured, mind, body and soul. I thoroughly love Emma Thompson and want to emulate her in my work, whatever it may be. I'm not sure what it will be, but one of my dreams is to put pictures up on the screen that are equally as inspiring and touching, loving and lovable, beautifully written and beautifully taken into one's being in order to act. I want to take the steps necessary to take in lines, learn them, let them become part of my being, take on the character so that I can react as her, live and breathe her, and then let it out in a way that can be portrayed on-screen as believable, almost as if I am someone entirely different. I want that.

I miss my boss, Scott. I really miss him. He is funny, thinks I'm funny, is fun to spend time around, the only problem is the age difference, and the difference in how we spend our time. Although I kind of like the space and I enjoy the gap in age and profile because it affords me more time to myself, but now that I am getting older I need something more, I need more touch, more closeness, and I have been getting it from my family more these past few days as I let them in a little closer and take on a little more responsibility for my own health and well-being.

But even so, I am becoming more aware of the inevitable pull forward, the beauty of desire becoming more of a drive, sort of how I see horniness as a drive for people to copulate. I think hormones are a beautiful thing from God now. Before I was mightily afraid of them and thought they were insane. Why in the world would I want to cry in front of people and exclaim loudly my emotions?? Well, now I understand. I want that too. I think it's great. Not all the time mind you, but some of the time I think it a great gift to be able to express oneself.

It is a difficult business, being alive, and because of that, it is imperative to be able to express, depress, loosen, let go. I see it more clearly now...or rather I feel it more deeply. I don't really see anything. I feel like my eyes are still hazy and I'm not looking to see very far, I'm looking to read into what is already in front of me. I feel like that is the first step, and I crave more so I rely on Him to give me more. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. And hallowed be thy name. :)

On a different note, I would like to comment on both of the movies I've seen lately. 1) American Hustle and 2) Saving Mr. Banks.

5 word review and GO

1) Tantalizing, Expounding, Sexy, Mental, and Beauty

2) Clever, Heartfelt, Real, Child-like, and Fantastic

To be honest I think that the 2nd movie (SMB) is more my style. It has less sex and more story. Less death and more life. I like the death, I do in some ways, but there is some of that in SMB anyways! I forgot. Colin Farrell plays his part absolutely superbly. I can tell he put his own battle with addiction into it, and he has come through it! I am so proud of him. Paul Walker has come through a lot, but then he died in a car crash not too long ago. They say he died doing what he loved, but I'm not so sure he enjoyed being passenger as much as he enjoyed driving, and I'm sorry to say he wasn't at the wheel when he died. :(

I think I look up to Natalie Portman, Emma Thompson, Kate Winslet, Julia Roberts, Meg Ryan...they all do things that mean something, some more than others. I'll never forget Emma Thompson's portrayal of Wit! Or Emma and Kate's work in Sense and Sensibility. Meg Ryan's You've Got Mail: so simple and so meaningful in my life. Julia Roberts in Runaway bride: brilliant in my mind. Natalie in everything she does, she is winsome and grounded. Gwyneth! In Emma. Sigh...then there is my french side with Amelie and Audrey Tatou. Catherine Deneuve in any of hers. Melanie Laurent.












Oh dear me. I could go on and on about these films. I think I'd better call it a night! Tomorrow...we'll see what tomorrow brings. :) May it be for His glory!!! He is holy hallelujah!