Some future dreamings

Of course there is always the future dreamings post, so here is today's!

I hope to one day work with horses and the earth. I hope to work with children, in an easy, flowing way for both of these things. Not in a way that is really difficult, taxing, or sad and depressing. I want it to feel free and hopeful, real and tender, awesomely powerful yet small to me. I want it to feel right, wherever I will be, and I want it to be just like planting my own heart in the earth. I want to be grateful everyday and to feel free to dream, love, open, cry, sit, play, and create, allow, sip at life if I don't want to gulp, gulp if I want to gulp, and to just be myself no matter what.

I hope to have a man I really truly admire and love in the way that makes me giddy and excited for the future. I want to support him and love him even when I don't agree with him. I want to pray with him and pray for him, just sit with him and ride horses with him, I want to feel free to travel but also have joy in the roots we make. I want to believe in our journey and feel myself in it, never allowing the guilt to creep in that says I'm not good enough or he is not good enough, but accepting that as part of my thoughts and existence and looking forward and upward at the God who created us first and foremost.

I want to not judge others for who they are but accept them with tender arms and lovingkindness. I want to be accepted with passion and fervor that I haven't felt before, looking into people's eyes with depth and connection. I want to work for my living and live for my work, but know the depth of rest that comes with allowing Him to be my King.

I want to share with others my life and my heart. I want to inspire and lead others in the positivity that I have in my Father's leading fire. I want to pray each day and have time alone with the lights in my life, thanking Him for them and constantly giving Him what I am given. I want to give to a man what I do not know and trust myself and him and Him above all.

I want to be willing to be wrong and laugh at myself and not take life so seriously that I cannot look up and let the world take shape around me. I want to dance, passionately, fully aware of what it is I am doing, to the best of my ability. I want to hear music in my body and let it flow out through my fingertips and my hair and my eyes and feet. I want to connect to my gut and allow it to guide me through life, trusting that it will truly guide me, the deepest parts of me in tune with my Maker.

I want to profess that I am not my own maker. I want to speak Truth and let the Truth speak for itself through my everyday life. I want to succeed. I want to sow seeds and see them grow, in whatever form I plant them. I want to be able to assess myself and those around me in an open way and urge us forward with the acceptance of where we are.

I want to be flexible and remain ever-changing and comfortable in that. I want to reach out and shelter those who need shelter just by extending what I am and have. I want to be strong in who I am and not second-guess the things that make me feel ashamed or wrong or outcast. I want to be willing to be outcast, and through that see my incastedness. I want to know my limits and allow them to be that and just look to the beauty inside me. I want to love.

Yes, these things I want in my future. Amen. :) :)