The Saturday before Sunday

So tomorrow is the music video, at 3:30 AM, and the Oscar's. I'm watching Enough Said as I'm thinking about acting and everything today, yesterday, and tomorrow are bringing into my life. I'm still reeling from the wedding, then I had TWO re-auditions for the UofA films, as well as a fitting for the music video outfit tomorrow.

I'm unsure as to how I feel about everything, of course. I liked acting because I was able to distance myself from myself while also expressing myself. I thought about Reagan and everything he is going through when I did the audition for Hoodlums, or Hoodies rather. I'm confused, it was a lot to take in, and I'm waking up at around 2:30 tomorrow, eatin' some chicken, maybe chewin on a few veggies, and gettin my way to the Ruby site where we're shooting the video.

Meeting Caleb's girlfriend was fun, sad, strange, and yet, I felt like it was the right place to be. Her wrinkles on her face, her 34 year old self makes me a little bit happy. She was sweet and her eyes gazed at Caleb lovingly. He is so sweet, a great guy as he walks around like a little giraffe. Sweet and he would lick the treat out of your hand with his long tongue.

IT's not his fault that Matt can't get his mind off sex. He's always making jokes about it and steering girls in the wrong way...it makes me ...not angry really as much as ... just not wanting to think about him.

Josiah is curly-haired and nice, with interesting teeth, red-rimmed eyes, and he hangs around Roxy... I would much rather be around him. I don't like Matt. The David character was really nice, and he was extra tall, I didn't even think about Kristen!! He had long hair and curly hair too, and a big nose and nice, big blue eyes. I hope it's me and him. I can do that, for sure, he just has to really come after me, and I can too. I promise.

Also Aaron, the camera operator, and Ben will be there, but Aaron lived in Monument! Crazy right?

What's going on in my tummy? I feel extra strange...I wish I could take my soups with me and never eat normal things. Hmmm, interesting, that just came up out of nowhere. Maybe I'll have some of my soup broth and some veggies and some meat tomorrow. I wish I could just...stop for a little bit.

Lord, I pray you continue to guide me. Guide me Lord Jesus. To be honest and truthful and give all the praise to you. The end, praise Jesus!